David Cook - Always Be My Baby - American Idol 4/15/08

Saturday, May 10, 2008

Posted by ` haowen at 8:28 PM

miracle of the moment

Saturday, April 19, 2008

It's time for letting go
All of our "if only"s
Cause' we don't have a time machine

And even if we did
Would we really want to use it
Would we really want to go change everything

Cause' we are who and where and what we are for now
And this is the only moment we can do anything about
Posted by ` haowen at 10:32 AM

again

Sunday, December 09, 2007

time and time again, i find enough reason to laugh at my self-stupidity.

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street

Edit - sorted out my thoughts during a long run.
"you start by doing the hardest thing: you forgive yourself" - aunt may, spiderman 3
Posted by ` haowen at 12:12 AM

shit

Sunday, October 14, 2007

life sure is DEPRESSING.

sigh.
Posted by ` haowen at 8:03 PM

take me away

Sunday, August 26, 2007

and you never knew an acoustic take of a classic could make it all the more beautiful.

This time, all I want is you
There is no one else, who can take your place
This time, you burn me with your eyes
You see past all the lies
You take it all away
I've seen it all and it's never enough, it keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away, take me away
I've got nothing left to say, just take me away

I try, to make my way to you
But still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do
I've seen it all, it was never enough, it keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away, take me away
I've got nothing left to say, just take me away

Don't give up on me yet, don't forget who I am
I know I'm not there yet, but don't let me stay here alone

This time, all I want is you
There is no one else, who can take your place
I've seen it all and it's never enough it keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away, take me away
I've got nothing left to say, just take me away
Take me away, take me away
I've got nothing left to say, just take me away

Posted by ` haowen at 3:49 PM

-

Friday, August 10, 2007

in this time and age, do people really think that there needs to be a reason behind everything we do?

i know this sounds cryptic but hey, it's meant to.
Posted by ` haowen at 10:05 PM

life, as it is

Sunday, July 15, 2007

and it seemed like so long since i last set my eyes on the civilian world;

3 weeks' confinement in OCS have seemed like a near-eternity, yet when i look back these 3 weeks have taught me so much. rewind time and i'd easily recall how the initial days seemed like hell - everything seemed so different and standards were raised to new heights never seen before. the mentality that we were still fresh recruits at that point in time merely lasted for that few moments until it dawned upon us that we were now officer cadet trainees who would eventually become future leaders of the country. expectations were raised; the heat was on.

to lead, to excel, to overcome. we were to abide to the OCS motto, it became our new calling. yet, i found myself having the strong urge to give up many a time throughout the first week. i felt stressed and couldn't adapt well - the horizon seemed rather bleak. i badly needed that motivation to press on and conquer the challenges ahead. but it eluded me like sand slithering down an hourglass.

leadership field camp soon came. i didn't expect to learn anything much out of it, having already been through countless camps of such nature. i thought it'll just be another ordinary camp. then came the point where we all had to make a short 180 second presentation on any topic. strangely enough, my team all focused on how army has changed their lives. when it came to vic he seemed to start on a fine note but when he went on to talk about how much he missed his family and girlfriend his voice started getting all wobbly and he then became emotionally unstable. it was shocking to see him tear right there, considering that he was a strong lad and all. how wrong was i, for in the next few instances, i uncontrollably teared too. i guess i could relate to him - i realised how much i missed my family and friends as well. in those times of self-helplessness i would have wanted to turn to my family for support and looked for a pillar of strength, but yet they seemed so near yet so far away. even during my own speech, i had a constant battle with the tears.

it made me think about weird stuff. like how much my mother had been encouraging me by listening to my complaints and telling me to push on in this tough journey every night. she was so reassuring and my soul was soothed just listening to her voice over the phone at night. like how much i missed the prescence of my ever-chirpy sister, and how much i missed the companionship of my close friends. in short, i realised people do care about me, but i have taken so many things for granted. the feeling was terrible and nothing short of indescribable. perhaps that was the lowest point in my life for quite some time now.

that experience really shook me up. now i know that everything is in place for a reason and purpose; national service was not implemented to be a waste of our time. it dawned on me that i had a duty to protect my loved ones, because if we do not bear this responsibility, then who will? the people around me have suddenly become the driving force to continue this arduous journey; i would not want to imagine a day where my loved ones can no longer be there for me due to our inadequacies. so i'd say, love others as you would love yourself(:
Posted by ` haowen at 6:37 PM